Lately, I have been going through some spiritual warfare. I have had such a feeling of sorrow on my heart for some of the things I have been witnessing. I don't really know how to deal with it.
I have been praying and I know God is listening. I know he is there but I don't know his plan. I know it is great though because everything that God does is great. Even if we don't see it or understand his greatness.
Sometimes I don't know how God is going to use me. I sit and wonder what he wants me to do. I ask how do I witness to these people? Is it through my actions? It is through love? Maybe, I am supposed to be interceding.
I just want to tell people how much Jesus loves them. I want to tell them that no matter what they have done that the LORD of lords, Kings of kings, the Alpha and Omega loves them.
"but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us." Romans 5:8 ESV
While I was dead in my sins God loved me. I was the lost sheep that he left the 99 to find. If he could love me while I was a sinner, while I did things I wasn't proud of he could love anyone.
He found me, he drew me to him and he opened my eyes. I was able to see. I saw him for what he was. The God of creation. I saw that by Jesus' blood I was redeemed. He washed my sins away. I want everyone to see Him for who he really is. My heart mourns for them O' Lord please draw them as you drew me to you, Lord.
I asked him "Why do they reject you, Lord? Why do they serve other masters? Why do they pray to the creation instead of you Lord? Why do they murder the children in their womb?" but I know the answer deep down. We live in a fallen world.
I also ask him to show me how to witness to them. How to show them that he is the cure for cancer in their soul. I trust in Jesus and I pray that when he wants me to speak, I will. I pray that when he wants me to move, I will. I pray that I can boldly proclaim Jesus where ever I go.
Without him we are nothing, we are lost, in a lost world. With him we have life.
Jesus loves you so what are you going to do about it?
Today when I was reading in the book of Psalms, I came across the 26th psalm. It really spoke to me and made me think of how I need to pray as David did in this psalm.
"Vindicate me, O Lord, for I have walked in my integrity, and I have trusted in the Lord without wavering. Prove me, O Lord, and try me; test my heart and my mind. For your steadfast love is before my eyes, and I walk in your faithfulness. I do not sit with men of falsehood, nor do I consort with hypocrites. I hate the assembly of evildoers, and I will not sit with the wicked. I wash my hands in innocence and go around your altar, O Lord, proclaiming thanksgiving aloud, and telling all your wondrous deeds. O Lord, I love the habitation of your house and the place where your glory dwells. Do not sweep my soul away with sinners, nor my life with bloodthirsty men, in whose hands are evil devices, and whose right hands are full of bribes. But as for me, I shall walk in my integrity; redeem me, and be gracious to me. My foot stands on level ground; in the great assembly I will bless the Lord." Psalms 26:1-12
All this psalm touched me and made me think of how I need to constantly have the Lord search my heart and my mind. I need him purging me of any ungodliness. It is really heard for me to do because I know I have a lot I need to work on. I need the Lord to rid me of so much. I know he has already purged me from some ungodliness but there is more that needs to be done. It won’t be easy, but I know if I trust in him, he will walk me through it. “O Lord, I love the habitation of your house and the place where your glory dwells.” This reminds me of when I am in my prayer closet and seeking the Lord’s face. I need to seek his face more. “My foot stands on level ground; in the great assembly I will bless the Lord.” If we are seeking him and living by his word being doers of the word and not just hearers only our feet will stand on that level ground because that level ground is our foundation.
I hope this has got you as excited as it has me. The psalms have a lot of life lessons and praises. If you haven’t read them, I would really encourage you to do so. It makes me want to run to my prayer closet and have my own special time with my Lord and Savior. May God bless you.
A few days ago we went on a vacation. It has been so long since we were able to get away and have some time where we could kick back and relax with the kiddos. Little did we know that the vacation would definitely be one to remember...
Okay to really give you a better understanding of this vacation I would have to start from the beginning. Here it goes... a few weeks ago I sold my property and it has been a super long drawn out process. I sold it to my mom so I didn't get as much as I could have for it because I wanted to give her a deal since she gave birth to me and has helped me out so much (Thanks mom if you are reading this). Since everything took a long time I didn't know when the funds would come in so I waited until they came before I was able to book a room. I called the place we normally go to see if they had a room for 2 nights but of course they only had it for one night. So I then called 3 or 4 other places before I found one that actually wasn't as much as our monthly rent *eye roll* and I found one. The pictures of the rooms look nice and it was half the price of all the other rooms. I then booked the two nights and they took the money off my card (30% first then the other when I checked in).
When we got to the hotel we seen it was a little run down on the outside but we were just excited to get into the room and relax. I went into the office to check in and there was a couple being helped ahead of me so I waited for them to be helped. While I was in the office checking in and everything my husband was in the car with the kids to make it easier on me. The other couple went out the door and I stepped up to the front desk and gave the young man my name and information. He took my debit card and ran it for the remainder of the balance for the room and I had to sign some papers about check out and I really didn't read over them because I was just wanting to get in the room and relax. Once I gave the man the paper back he then handed me the keys to the room and told me it was room 1. Which was only about 10 feet away from the office door.
I then signaled to my husband and let him know that I got the keys and we could start unloading the car. I had the keys and in my head I was thinking about how we actually got keys since most motel/hotels use cards now it seemed a little odd but kind of made it feel homey. I put the key in the key hole and started turning it then the door opened as we walked into our room a strong odor followed. It was very strong and unpleasant. I looked at my husband and said what do you think? I was not sure myself what to think but he didn't really say much. As we walked around the room our children was saying how cool it was and how it was a really nice place. However, it was quite the opposite. It was not a nice place it was a horrible place. I could tell that my husband wasn't impressed but he was trying his best to keep a poker face. He didn't want me to feel bad for spending so much on such a dump. As we looked around we started noticing more and more wrong with the room. If you looked on the ceiling you would see a hole that was probably as big around as a basketball and it looked like it was taped up and then pained over. There were around 5 or more what looked like pee stains on the carpet. Then my husband sat in one of the chairs and it broke. However, those were not the only things the one of the beds had what looked like a blood stain on the top covers.
That was the last straw we packed up all of our stuff loaded it into our car and I walked into the office. I handed that man the keys and asked for my money back. He then responded saying that he would have to talk to the manager before he could give me any money. I asked him to just call the manager and he then told me she is in a meeting that but we is expected to get out of the meeting in about 30 minutes and he would have her call me.
We waited around for a bit but I wanted to find another place if we even could and then get some food. I then get a hold of the first hotel that I called when I first started looking for rooms for the vacation and ended up getting a room. We went and checked into the room and it was such a good little room and everything was clean.
Keep and eye out for part two and I will let you know if we ended up getting our money back from the dirty hotel... To be Continued...
Pizza Grilled Cheese
Take two slices of bread butter one side of each (for grilling) on the non buttered side add 1 slice of mozzarella then add one table spoon of pizza sauce on top of the mozzarella (if it isn't on top it will cause the bread to get soggy). Then add any pizza topping you would like such as pepperoni, mushrooms, etc. after you add those put another slice of mozzarella on top then the other piece of bread with the butter top up. Fry it in a skillet until the cheese is melted or golden brown.